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i'm falon. i'm 20 years o­ld & i live in oregon.
pronouns: she/her or they/them.
chumhandle: macabreMusician

SYLPH OF HEART

DERSE DREAMER

non-binary/genderfluid. women-loving person. infp. ­photograph­er. musici­an. taco e­nthusiast.­ coffee lo­ver. homestuck.
vampi­re slayer.­ minecraft­ addict. w­omen's soc­cer suppor­ter. cinem­atography ­fan. socia­l justice ­advocate.

at age 15 my friend gill told me if i came out girls would be all over me and i wonder if that could still happen at age 20

— 1 day ago
#falon vs the world 

what if i were to just

take good pictures of myself

and posted them

what if i did that

— 1 day ago with 1 note
#falon vs the world 

in other news i kind of just want to change all my facebook info to actually true things meaning put interested in girls and change my gender to gender fluid and pronouns to they/them and “religion” to atheist. i’m really tired of feeling like i’m lying idk i should probably come out to my grandma and sister first but that makes me nervous i just want to tell everyone at once but no one knows about my gender thing except friends and not even all my friends so and i don’t think my family will ever accept me so this is kind of a big deal i should probably care more about what would happen if i did that but i feel like it’d just be one less thing to worry about if i just do it

— 1 day ago
#falon vs the world  #gender stuff 

still can’t help feeling like i wasn’t and will never be good enough though and it terrifies me to think maybe people have stopped caring about me that i still care about a lot

— 1 day ago
#falon vs the world  #negative 

braiker:

bethrevis:

US Constitution, First Amendment: The right to assemble, to have free speech, to have freedom of the press.

Ferguson Police: Kicks out media and limits protestors to a “First Amendment Area”image

funny, i thought the WHOLE COUNTRY was a first amendment area. silly me. 

(via ectobukakke)

— 1 day ago with 47627 notes
#lol  #ferguson 

relationships really mess me up and i haven’t even had a proper one. honestly idk if i’m fit to handle a relationship. i’m still getting over stuff that happened months ago. i’m still sad, still missing her. the dreams had mostly stopped for a while but i’ve dreamt about her almost every night this week. hell, i had a dream about another sort-of-ex that i haven’t spoken to in two years. i’m wondering if anyone every truly and fully gets over anyone, or if feelings will always linger, and it’s just that no one talks about it because you’re not supposed to remember how you felt for people four years ago when you’ve got a thing with someone else right now. cause you don’t want that person anymore but sometimes you still get sad thinking about how it all went. but that’s hard to explain.

idk. i’ve just been thinking about how it all went i guess. and like i said it’s hard to explain. i regret how i acted. in a choose your own adventure game this would’ve been the path that lead to the “game over” screen. if i’m truthful i wasn’t ready for any of it. i knew i wasn’t ready. but i kept pursuing her because it was the first time i was really able to feel for someone again. i knew it wouldn’t work probably two months in when my jealousy started getting out of hand. i knew those weren’t healthy feelings. it was just…inner conflict the whole time. i don’t blame myself for everything, but a lot of it was my fault. it started to fall apart the moment i got insecure. that line of thought spiraled, as it always does, and i don’t like what i turned into.

but i don’t regret loving her. it’s really fucking cliche but it’s the whole “if you love her let her go” bullshit. i just want her to be happy. i would’ve hurt her if i kept talking to her, and i would’ve hurt myself. i want to talk to her now, i miss her so goddamn much. i always see shit i think she’d find hilarious or think of something and want to tell her and then i’m like “oh.” but i think it would probably still be bad for me. and when i get in a bad place i lash out at the people around me. i’d be a shit friend if started talking to her and immediately turned into an asshole, wouldn’t i? plus idk if she’d want to talk to me. if we do talk again someday it will probably be like… my choice to initiate conversation, her choice to continue conversation. i have to think about myself as well. how i am, well, that determines whether i am capable of being a good friend. if i can’t be a good friend, i can’t talk to her. that wouldn’t be fair to her. wouldn’t be fair to either of us.

idk. if she sees this that’s okay. i don’t really have anything to hide. i’m just venting and trying to figure out what’s up with me and what to do next that’s best for me. because i really miss being her friend. i miss talking to her. we might not talk again but i hope we do eventually. i don’t want to lose another friend forever.

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#falon vs the world 
azureshark:

oh look MORE RTSTUCK.
so have some grimgav. btw this picture is kinda old??? so i’ll redo it sometime.

azureshark:

oh look MORE RTSTUCK.

so have some grimgav. btw this picture is kinda old??? so i’ll redo it sometime.

— 1 day ago with 143 notes
#cool art  #all this grimgav  #it's seriously awesome  #crossovers  #gavin free  #rt  #ah  #rtstuck  #homestuck 
nightmaresky820:

I didnt like the other trickster michael i did because compared to the homestuck trickster he wanst very
colorful
So i also took this oportunety for more grimdark gavin

nightmaresky820:

I didnt like the other trickster michael i did because compared to the homestuck trickster he wanst very

colorful

So i also took this oportunety for more grimdark gavin

— 1 day ago with 242 notes
#cool art  #crossovers  #michael jones  #gavin free  #rt  #ah  #rtstuck  #homestuck